On Friday the 9th Jennah went and had her tubes put in her ears... We had to be there at 6:30am and the surgery was at 7:30... I was a nervous wreck all morning.. I know it was such a simple procedure but who wants there baby have even the simplest procedure done to them.. Well they took her from Adam and I at 7:30 and around 7:50ish the doctor came to us and said that he was done and that she did great.. No fluid in her ears at the time so that was great to hear... About a min after taht I hear my poor baby screaming.. That just broke my heart.. I just wanted to hold her and just be there for her... about another min later a nurse came to us and said we coud go back and see her.. When I went into the room a nurse was trying to rock her and poor Jennah wasnt having it... I took her and just held her while she cried... About 20 mins passed and they said she could go home.. Well she feel a sleep in the car and as soon as we got home she woke up.. I went to make her breakfast and as I am doing so she just starts talking... She seemed to be in a great mood.. I was shocked.. LOL After breakfast she seemed to be doing great so i let her play alittle... LOL that didnt last very long.. She was getting fussy.. BUT she would get fussy and than a few mins later she was fine.. She did this on and off all day... I was with Adam so I took a nap while she was playing.. When I woke up i went downstairs and i saw the cutest thing ever.. Jennah was asleep on Adams chest.. Adam was asleep as well...
::::Heres a pic of Jennah and her daddy taking a nap::::
Well since they were napping I went and laid back down and watched tv.. But when Jennah woke up she was pretty fussy and stayed fussy for most of the day..
When Saturday came she was pretty much back to her normal crazy self.. LOL
Onto another topic.. As for whats going on with me and Adam, everything is confusing.. I have been pretty much down in the dumps lately.. I have been very sad and very confused with how I want things and what to do with my life... I know the right thing to say and feel would be to just leave him alone and to move on with my life.. But its so hard b/c i still do love him.. WHY you ask? I dont know.. He has done nothing but hurt me for the past 2 months.. And on more than one occasion.. As of right now I dont want to be with him but who knows how I will feel in the future.. I might want him back 100% in a week, or month or 2 days.. Who really knows.. All I know is that I do still love him... I mean he is still my husband no matter how bad he has betrayed me... I dont know.. i guess I am just that loyal to him...
But we will see.. Right now I just need to focus on getting healthy and being the best mom that I could be...
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That is a cute picture. It definately shows some happier moments that are going on. I wish that this stuff would just end and you could move on in the direction that God has planned for you. If you ever need a Hawaiian vacation, i'm here until December ;)
I'd love to see you and give you a BIG HUG! Always in my prayers, always here for you and always wishing you well.....Leza
I know from my own personal experience how torn I felt but really in your heart I think you know what you need to do. That trust is forever broken and if you really are like me forgiving and forgetting are way too hard in these situations. It's hard right now, you are still in the throws of it all. AND no matter what happens, you will always love him. But you don't have to settle for being hurt and betrayed.
Only you can decide what to do, but know that I'm always here for you. Love you girl.
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