Sorry

I am really sorry that I havent been staying up to date with my blog.. I didnt have the internet for awhile and when I would think about posting I am busy and then i forget all over again.. LOL.

Well not too much have been going on.. I can finally say that I am starting to feel happy with my life and the way its going.. Things happen for a reason.. I dont know what my reason is yet but I am sure there is something very special waiting for me at the end of this road...

Jennah is doing ok.. She has been sick for the past couple of weeks.. One time she had a double ear infection, and earlier this week she had a throat infection and today I had to take her back to the doctor b/c her whole body was covered in a rash.. I felt so bad for her... Well.. the doctor did a strep test and the thing came back positive. She said that the rash is from the strep.. So hopefully this is the last of it...

I just wanted to post a little note and add a few new pics.. I PROMISE I will post more very soon..

PS.... Congrats Amy, Dan, and Lorelei.. Baby Miller is adorable.. Best wishes to your family...

So Sorry

I am really sorry for not posting anything lately.. Things have been REALLY tough. I'm not going to go into detalils right now but right now i do not have the internet. Hopefully within the next month or so I will have it back on

I love all of you and I will post again as soon as I can

Tubes and Feelings

On Friday the 9th Jennah went and had her tubes put in her ears... We had to be there at 6:30am and the surgery was at 7:30... I was a nervous wreck all morning.. I know it was such a simple procedure but who wants there baby have even the simplest procedure done to them.. Well they took her from Adam and I at 7:30 and around 7:50ish the doctor came to us and said that he was done and that she did great.. No fluid in her ears at the time so that was great to hear... About a min after taht I hear my poor baby screaming.. That just broke my heart.. I just wanted to hold her and just be there for her... about another min later a nurse came to us and said we coud go back and see her.. When I went into the room a nurse was trying to rock her and poor Jennah wasnt having it... I took her and just held her while she cried... About 20 mins passed and they said she could go home.. Well she feel a sleep in the car and as soon as we got home she woke up.. I went to make her breakfast and as I am doing so she just starts talking... She seemed to be in a great mood.. I was shocked.. LOL After breakfast she seemed to be doing great so i let her play alittle... LOL that didnt last very long.. She was getting fussy.. BUT she would get fussy and than a few mins later she was fine.. She did this on and off all day... I was with Adam so I took a nap while she was playing.. When I woke up i went downstairs and i saw the cutest thing ever.. Jennah was asleep on Adams chest.. Adam was asleep as well...

::::Heres a pic of Jennah and her daddy taking a nap::::

Well since they were napping I went and laid back down and watched tv.. But when Jennah woke up she was pretty fussy and stayed fussy for most of the day..

When Saturday came she was pretty much back to her normal crazy self.. LOL

Onto another topic.. As for whats going on with me and Adam, everything is confusing.. I have been pretty much down in the dumps lately.. I have been very sad and very confused with how I want things and what to do with my life... I know the right thing to say and feel would be to just leave him alone and to move on with my life.. But its so hard b/c i still do love him.. WHY you ask? I dont know.. He has done nothing but hurt me for the past 2 months.. And on more than one occasion.. As of right now I dont want to be with him but who knows how I will feel in the future.. I might want him back 100% in a week, or month or 2 days.. Who really knows.. All I know is that I do still love him... I mean he is still my husband no matter how bad he has betrayed me... I dont know.. i guess I am just that loyal to him...

But we will see.. Right now I just need to focus on getting healthy and being the best mom that I could be...

A Good Friend

This weekend I saw Leigh Ann, an old friend of mine .. We basically grew up together.. She has been there for me these past couple of months even while living in Greenwood.. But anyways.. here are some pictures fromt his weekend...

Yet Again....

Sorry I havent been on in awhile... I have had a few things going on so i havent been in the mood to update..

I had a set back with my healing process from this whole thing with Adam.. I was doing great and healing great.. Getting over what happened was finally able to start moving on.. Well last i recieved a letter that didnt have the best news in it... (lets just say the letter was from Adam. it was a confession letter).. So, I have been very sad and sadly i have distant myself from my friends and from the people that mean the most to me.. I havent been in the mood to do much. Seems like i am takeing this news harder than I took the other news 2 months ago..

I am having to start everything all over again.. But this time i dont feel as strong.. I feel weak and very confused about things..

So again time will tell with how things will go and time will just heal my pain...